February 12th, 2008

Radiohead; Smiles are free

And... things did not go as planned

Well... this weekened plans got shot in the foot big time for me. With the operations coming up and aunt bonnie oh so suddenly calling us yesterday to say she's coming the weekend... how grand. I am not looking forward to it. She's going to be trying to take everything she wants from Babcia's house. As if Babcia doesn't have a say in it. Shit like that makes me want to write a will for myself right now. SO I'm going to try and get certain things before she does somehow. She can be a pretty disgusting person, Bonnie. She's going right for that old handpainted china, which I nor Mom care about. I just want to asking Grandmom if she can manage who she wants what to go to. I wish she wrote a will... This is really depressing to do.
But I'm going to call off the weekend AFTER THAT tomorrow because I need a break bad. And there shouldn't be anything in my way from taking a vacation than. Health and all. Yeah. I just want to make it clear to everyone in my surrounding and even my doctor's.

...I really wanted to see my other friends. And I don't feel like saying 'shit happens'. More like "Why does it always have to be chaos?" But if I think that way, at least I know I'm getting through the stuff. Looking forward to a new day to start honestly. Maybe today was just one of those days not meant to be mine...

Grand finale----


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