January 9th, 2008

Radiohead; Smiles are free

Again. People.

I don't think people in general realize how patient and nice I am untill I get stomped on so much. I take a whole lot of shit for and from a good portion of folks. THe forgiveness I have given and all.
There's a group around right now, of people that I know, that really are swallowing up a whole lot from me and using me since I guess I don't fit in with them... But since I'm there I guess they decide to put me to use. And because I have to be around them everyday I am considerate and nice; just because I must appeare dull and not interesting to them since they are in my eyes, snobs. Which explains why I must not be worth much at all to them. But whatever. Once we accept our limits, we go beyond them. And yeah, I'm still pushing for the beyond. It's tempting to sit around thinking "I wish they would only take me as I am" but I think that's more like putting a wall up and not giving enough effort. I just haven't been around them long enough for them to accept me, even though if they took the effort to know me they would love me, but since they arn't giving effort fuck that.

I'm not a moron. And you know what, I'm a very intelligent person. And I know I am. And I know my worth. That's not saying I'm smarter than everyone, it's saying I know that I am intelligent, because I know that I know nothing. Intelligence is not to make no mistakes, but quickly to see how to make them good. It's the same way to say there are painters who transform the sun to a yellow spot, but there are others who with the help of their art and their intelligence, transform a yellow spot into sun.

So there.
Radiohead; Smiles are free

Work thoughts

I think I'll ask for a day off. Whenever I get online with time to talk to people I'm just so sore and tired.
I haven't asked for day off, but now since most everyone around me is telling me to, I think I will. For my own health.. 40 hours a week (sometimes a little over) is a whole lot.